Today is a good day! We went in for the intrauterine insemination, and at first the nurse couldn’t get through the cervix. Then the doctor tried and he was having trouble. As the doctor is shaking his head not knowing what to do, I tell Kyle “the Red Sea parted”, and my doctor asks what I said. I tell him “I was hoping that if God could part the Red Sea then He could part my cervix!” Just as I said that, he got the catheter through.
Another recent confirmation of the promise God has given-Last week I was feeling kind of frustrated so I decided to listen to the Bible on the Ipod. Without thinking, I randomly chose 1 Samuel. As I listened to Hannah’s story of God opening her womb, I was reminded that just as God gave Hannah her son Samuel, God was going to give me my child. It was a great moment of remembering the promise. I know without a doubt that God is going to give me children. Some women in my situation question whether or not they are supposed to be a mother. I know I’m supposed to be a mother, it’s just a matter of timing.
My mom told me today that my Aunt Carole woke up last night and felt like our pregnancy was going to be the family’s Christmas gift. She didn’t even know we were doing the insemination today.
God is so faithful to remind us of His promise through the process. I’m extremely excited and hopeful that we are pregnant. Honestly, there is a part of me that is scared to even say that, but I really want to take a step of faith and truly believe that God is going to fulfill His promise.
Started Clomid 100 mg D3-D7
Good news! My doctor did a trial transfer-and he got through!!! This means that I hopefully won’t have to have my cervix dilated for the real insemination. Since last time’s disappointment, I have been praying that since God can part the Red Sea, then He sure can part my cervix. And it looks like He did!! So now we take the hormones–which unfortunately make me have hot flashes and gain weight. But right now, I’m willing to do just about anything for this baby. One thing that walking through this process has given me is this overwhelming love for a child that hasn’t even been conceived yet. Even if it’s not our genetic child, I still have this deep desire to hold my baby. If I think about it too long it brings me to tears. So onto something else…
I got a job offer today from my infertility doctor–hmmmm? I guess it’s something to think and pray about. I’m always open to God’s possibilities.
My family is coming into town tomorrow night, and I am so excited about seeing them. It has been a while since we have all been together, and a really long time since both of our parents are together, so it will be a weekend of pure fun!
I’ve spent the past few days getting my house ready for my in-laws and my parents coming to town. There is nothing like company to inspire you to get those projects done that you’ve been wanting to do, but just haven’t found the time.
Tomorrow I have an appointment with my infertility specialist. I’m looking forward to going and making a game plan. I think he will probably do an ultrasound to check my ovaries to see if there looking good for ovulation. I pray they look great!
As a woman we have to have the dreaded pelvic exam done. At first I was insistent that only a woman do it. Now having to go through all of this-I really don’t care as long as they know what they are doing. I still don’t like having to do it-but let’s be honest-who does?
Hi! My name is Kristy and this is my outlet to share thoughts on motherhood, infertility and life as I know it. To give you some insight into me, I've been married for over eight years to 
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