Day 8
Well today has been so busy at work, and I am tired. I woke up early (4:45 early) to take my parents to the airport, so it’s been a long day. We had cell group tonight, and I must admit my expectations and anticipation level were very low. Then my wonderful husband had a really good word about being a cheerful giver. 2 Corinthians 9:8 “His grace abound toward you”. It was a great reminder of how God gives us an abundant grace for everything we are called to do. We have hope!!
Then Kyle wanted to share with everyone our process this month and asked everyone to agree with us in prayer. I don’t mind people knowing, but all the questions just makes it harder somehow. That’s why blogging will be good,-because then I won’t have to recap over and over my feelings of disappointment-but you better believe that if it’s not disappointing I will probably be screaming it from the mountaintops.
Day 9
This morning I was reminded of a curse that was spoken over me that needed to be broken. As I was checking out of my doctor’s office last week, the receptionist who takes care of billing said to me, “well, I might as well start an in vitro file for you” as if she knew that artificial insemination wouldn’t work. So in the name of Jesus I declare that I don’t need an in vitro file-that this is going to work this time.
Tomorrow I go for another ultrasound to see if my ovaries produced follicles. If so, then everything is a go!
It has been so nice having family around this weekend. We all went to church together, and the service was amazing. It was one of Pastor’s best sermons, but it was more than what he said. The presence of the spirit was so evident, and it was powerful to experience a move of the Holy Spirit with our family. Then at the end, as Pastor was dismissing the congregation, he flippantly says “and that baby is coming!” Kyle and I both, as well as my mom, immediatly teared up. It was like he said it right at us, and I believe that through the Holy Spirit he did.
It feels so much better to be hopeful even at the risk of major disappointment, then to feel stagnant and safe. Going through this round gives me a lot of hope that maybe it will work this time.
It was sad to see our family leave, especially my sister. She moved to East Tennessee just a few months ago, and is going through culture shock. It is so hard to find friends and community when you move to a new area, especially when you are literally starting from scratch. I know that God has called her there, and it’s just a matter of time until she finds that sense of belonging there. I am so proud of her though, she has truly stepped out of every comfort zone and surrendered to God’s will for her life. Stay the course sis! You’ll make it.
I’ll admit it-I really like watching Grey’s Anatomy. Last week was good-although I’m torn whether or not Dr. McDreamy should stay with his wife. From the spiritual side of things I guess he should, but then there is the emotional side that really wants him and Meredith to get back together. I hate it when media lures my flesh in such a way that contradicts what I truly believe. I think it happens more often than I even realize-which is a reminder to stay guarded.
Day 5 started out with a roar-I went to work my half day and all of the sudden everyone decided they needed to be seen. Usually I see 8-11 patients in a morning-I saw 15 yesterday! Needless to say-it was extremely busy.
I then came home and prepared for my husband’s not-so surprise 30th birthday party. Everything worked out perfectly. Sometimes when I plan an event, I have certain unspoken expectations that often aren’t met, but this time they were met. I wanted everything to be perfect for his 30th birthday-and the evening was exactly what I had expected!
Because he found out about the party, it made planning it so much easier. I think it was God’s way of lightening the load for me. Oh and he found out because of a number of things- 1st he was looking around my office for some paperwork of his, and found my invite list. Then he was going to ask for a half day off on Friday to spend with my parents, and I told him that he needed to reserve those requests for our upcoming doctor’s appointments. After my huge breakdown, he caught me at a very weak moment and just asked “Are you planning a party on Friday?” I was in shock, I didn’t even answer. I knew then that he knew. What’s the point of throwing a surprise party if it’s no longer a surprise. So after a few tears, I realized that it was probably better that he knew.
Day 6
So today it is official-I’m married to a 30 year old man. Hee-Hee 
Happy Birthday baby! I love you so much, and I hope that on day’s like today you know how very loved and appreciated you are by everyone around you. I’m glad I will be around for the next 30.
Baby talk- Still taking Clomid 100 mg and prenatal vitamins–and just waiting for my follow-up ultrasound on day 10 to see if my ovaries have responded to the medication.
Well I just got back from the airport and picked up my parents and sister! Yeah!!!
It is going to be a fun and memorable weekend.
Unfortunately, the surprise party I planned for my husband is no longer a surprise, but at least it’s still a party with a “few” of our closest friends.
As far as Day 4 goes, I’m taking Clomid 100mg-not feeling any effects yet and of course my prenatal vitamins. I am figuring out that I can somewhat gauge my hope for pregnancy factor by the consistency of my taking prenatal vitamins. If I think I may get pregnant-I am very deligent and conscientious about taking them, and then there are times that I don’t take any (subconsciously thinking what’s the point)? Hmmm…discovering strange behavior about yourself is always enlightening.
Started Clomid 100 mg D3-D7
Good news! My doctor did a trial transfer-and he got through!!! This means that I hopefully won’t have to have my cervix dilated for the real insemination. Since last time’s disappointment, I have been praying that since God can part the Red Sea, then He sure can part my cervix. And it looks like He did!! So now we take the hormones–which unfortunately make me have hot flashes and gain weight. But right now, I’m willing to do just about anything for this baby. One thing that walking through this process has given me is this overwhelming love for a child that hasn’t even been conceived yet. Even if it’s not our genetic child, I still have this deep desire to hold my baby. If I think about it too long it brings me to tears. So onto something else…
I got a job offer today from my infertility doctor–hmmmm? I guess it’s something to think and pray about. I’m always open to God’s possibilities.
My family is coming into town tomorrow night, and I am so excited about seeing them. It has been a while since we have all been together, and a really long time since both of our parents are together, so it will be a weekend of pure fun!
I’ve spent the past few days getting my house ready for my in-laws and my parents coming to town. There is nothing like company to inspire you to get those projects done that you’ve been wanting to do, but just haven’t found the time.
Tomorrow I have an appointment with my infertility specialist. I’m looking forward to going and making a game plan. I think he will probably do an ultrasound to check my ovaries to see if there looking good for ovulation. I pray they look great!
As a woman we have to have the dreaded pelvic exam done. At first I was insistent that only a woman do it. Now having to go through all of this-I really don’t care as long as they know what they are doing. I still don’t like having to do it-but let’s be honest-who does?
Hi! My name is Kristy and this is my outlet to share thoughts on motherhood, infertility and life as I know it. To give you some insight into me, I've been married for over eight years to 
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